Feelings/Perspective

Today is one of those days where I am filled with different emotions.....various feelings. I feel like a jumbled mess.

I have mixed emotions over the happenings on Sunday...and with the wreath laying ceremonies today. My heart is filled with sadness for everyone who was lost and for their families who carry on.......I am filled with pride over people shouting USA, USA......and yet it makes me sad that it takes the death of an evil man to bring us here.

I am sad because of situations in my own life. Strained relationships, deaths of friends , health issues of my own and of people I care about,  children who live farther away than I want them to, Mother's Day without my mom.....

I feel blessed to live in this country, to have my family and my home.......I am filled with love for them.

I have hope that someday I will be in a better place with the people I hold dear......where there will be no more worries and no more tears.

I struggle with worry, even though I try to give them over to my God.....life's problems seem insurmountable at times. Endless bills- doctor, car insurance, plumbers, etc......I feel like the guy in "It's A Wonderful Life"....I'm worth more dead than I am alive.....

It's hard to keep things in perspective with no end in sight. Just how do we do it anyway? We keep plugging away...one foot in front of the other....doing what we can, and what we don't get to we try to do tomorrow....

One of my mom's favorite sayings was "keep your chin up".....is really good advice because in the midst of all of this chaos and hardship it would be so very easy to just give up.

Don't sweat the small stuff......I reminded my daughter in law this a few days ago......

KISS....keep it simple stupid.....is also good advice.

My heart is heavy today...too many feelings.....not enough words to describe how I feel.