There's so much I want to say but am afraid of what others might think. I don't take criticism ....or rejection well. I wonder if I ever will. I can remember my dad telling me how I needed to learn to accept criticism. Even then I wondered why......what gives someone else the right to criticize me? I am me...take me or leave me....love me or hate me.....but I am ME!! Reminds me of the old Monkey's song "I Wanna Be Me!!"
God made me this way......so why do you think there's something wrong with me???
As you can probably tell it has been a rough month for me. I feel like I am trying to "find" myself again and at this age it is not easy.
I need to get a job, but with my fibromyalgia it is going to be so had no matter what I do.......so I worry....and stress.....
I have a desire to be creative.
I take inventory of my life and it hits me that I am not really good at anything....oh, I can do things.....I cook, bake, sew, etc. ....but I'm just mediocre. I'm not good......
Sometimes I know just enough to get by.
I feel like a failure. Is this all there is?
Who am I really?
I find myself being depressed. I get aggravated ....annoyed.....sad.....
I need something but I don't know what it is.
I desire peace and harmony.
For so long I defined my life through my children.......now what?
I feel lost. I thought at this time in my life I would have everything figured out......but I feel more confused now than I did when I was younger.
I'm not sure where this journey is going to take me but I bet it is going to be different.
