Just returned from a visit to the doctor.
I hate doctor's visits. I hate sitting there telling him all of my troubles. I hate whiners. I don't want to be a whiner......but that's what I feel like.
I try to keep going everyday......to do what I need to do....but some days it is very hard.
I hate feeling bad everyday. I hate not being able to do what I want to do when I want to.
I hate feeling like I am letting everyone down because I can't hold down a job or because I can't keep up with housework.
I HATE IT! I HATE IT!
I am determined not to let this "thing" ruin me......but how?
I hear you Vicki! I could have written this blog myself. I have been pressing my luck this winter doing things I like...shoveling and ice skating. Last week I faced several fears and took a ski lesson in Colorado. This week I am paying for it physically, and I HATE IT! But I refuse to live in a cage. We have to keep trying new things and face our fears...especially the ones these illnesses bring. I am also determined not to let it ruin or run my life! So open up that cage door and fly!!
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