Today Is the First Day of the Rest of My Life.......really

One week ago today my husband and I moved our youngest into college. One week ago tomorrow we came home to an empty house. It doesn't seem like a big thing until I tell you that we have had children in our home for 33 years nonstop and this empty nest thing is going to take some getting used to. My husband and I have never....yes,never....been totally alone. I find myself wondering if we will still like each other. Our whole lives have been centered around raising our family. Now what do we do? Well, I have spent the last week cleaning and getting my house in order. It was neglected when we were preparing for the son's departure. I got some help with my aunt so I could take a few days to get it all done. And, today...is "my" day. I am sitting here typing with "color solution" in my hair. Once that is done I am planning on doing some painting while listening to some soothing music. I'll let you know how that goes as I am not good at doing things just for myself. I would rather be focusing on someone else. I just felt I needed some time to recover from this emotional time in my life. Stress makes my fibromyalgia worse and I feel awful. I have also decided that I need to take more control over my life and to attempt to do things that I want to do. If the weather ever cools down I hope to try to start to walk more. Although this weather is hard on me and my legs have not been cooperating. I want to try to read more. I have been neglecting that recently. I hope that my husband and I can take some little side trips now and then. I want to visit the shrine at Maria Stein. I want to go back to the Toledo and Dayton Art Museums and I want to see if I can find my family's burial plot in Galion, OH. (nothing big....just something we haven't done in ages) The kids are all doing well. I have 2 sons who have just had job promotions, my daughter is a new mother and the other 2 are doing well in college. Life is good. It's just different.....and I miss the kids....and grandkids like crazy. But, today is the first day of the rest of my life. Let's see where it takes me.